Be the change you want to see.

welp you have now.
i am on day 4, ending day 4.

what it is, is a nerve cluster in your face gets inflamed and basically paralyzes half yo' face.

UGH

but it's not a stroke, and I seem to be recovering, and this didn't happen while i was teaching high school and had to worry about how i look affecting how I do my job.

So. *shrug* Could be worse. I thought it was a fucking STROKE.

I'm making short videos about my progress and discoveries with this thing, it's annoying as heck but I'm learning and troubleshooting (I HAVE TO TAPE MY EYE SHUT TO SLEEP BECAUSE MY EYE MUSCLES AREN'T WORKING Y'ALL)

Okay.

it's late and i still have to take my usual meds plus some massive antiviral and two very fucking bitter steroid pills. Bleah. and then i get to moisturize my eyeball and tape my eyelid shut. if you don't do that with Bell's you can get a corneal ulcer and go blind. So that's fun. No biggie

*SCREAMING* like if i had a body horror squick, which i don't, i have to stab myself with little needles on the regular and have had to for years? this could be a real problem.

but *sigh* I've done worse in the past so i can keep this shit in perspective.

self care. I has it.