Be the change you want to see.

That was such a good party! Thanks be everyone who came, who helped with food, with set-up, with cuddles, and with teardown. Jenn was amazing with the food and helping me be organized all props to Jenn!
Sean brought the most amazing parfait for dessert. Amy and Kit brought cider from red branch (POG (yes, POG like those little round discs from the 90's!) and apple)

Felt to me that it became a delightfully integrated group, lots of flirting and chatting, kinksters joking, enbies relaxing... I got to be cuddled up in a pile of hot enbies- Kit, Sabrina, and Dee, and later got to spoon Nija with Amy on her other side, and eventually Cy on her other side after things shifted around,
And then Brandon and I had our cuddle date. Jessica teased us because she said this week both of us had chatted to her about looking forward to it. :D
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It's hard for me to put into words how much I love being with someone who shows me I'm desirable on multiple levels. It's been a very very long time since I've had that. He shows me with attention and eye contact, with words, and with how he touches me. And with all three at once. I'm feeling very FED today and I'm enjoying that a LOT.

We're learning how to kiss each other. I told him about not being ticklish, except in trusty bedtime situations. And I was thinking last night as I fell asleep about the kind of touch I want to ask him for. We're being extremely straightforward about our communication. Last night he said, "can I caress your breasts?" And I said yes, and he went exploring. :D

He's very grounding. And I like very much something he wrote recently, about wanting to encourage his friends and lovers to live at full volume more often. And last night he grinned and said, "I'm glad I encourage you to push your faders up"

I've been muting myself off and on my whole life. No blame necessarily, outside the whole patriarchal/kyriarchy system, but

I. WANT. TO. LIVE. LOUD.

More of this!!!